Omga,

My dad is literally Germany... this is bad. He literally said to my brother, "You have 10 minuites for a shower, and for a bath, 20 minuites." HE'S LITERALLY GERMANY IN EPISODE 33 WITH GERMANY'S CAFE I SWEAR TO GOD THIS AIN'T GOOD!!! I'm cooked.

Wagh,

It's Valantines. Good news is I have a gf. The bad news is my antisocial ass does not want to go out today. But I'm at leeast starting to reconsider. I should probably go out with her, I'll ask the school discord. I reeaaly don't want to. I still love her of course but going OUTSIDE. No, I don't want to.

Oof, math,

Math does NOT make me feel good but I’m at least done with it for the rest of the week. I finished the test and the homework. Yeah that too. I am currently writing this in math class because we’re supposed to do a quiet activity. Since it’s so quiet I thought about how bad of a person I am. No, I haven’t done anything physically bad, I could never hurt someone severely, I’m too sensitive and sympathetic for that. I believe in good morals and stuff like that, I swear. These are the things that I want to happen to ME. I’ll go into more detail about this in the Germany shrine… because that is where I guess I put all my weird thoughts.

Today I'm gonna put it on, Tonight I'm gonna twist and shout, The fabric beats against the wind, And cuts the definition of my skin, You know I'm gonna put it on, I'm sure I should be embarrassed but I'm not, I'm sure I should feel stupid but I'm hot, Gonna grab my brush and paint the town, I've got the binary shredded down

Renard - I UPDATED MY F-LIST

Best song by far… actually expresses what I’m feeling right now. Adding on, I have a lot to do today. I want to take a good nap but I know I will just be gooning instead. Man, I am a disappointment. Still, I am tired and I have a project to finish today. I need leather and cardboard and that is it. Maybe string to tie the book together to make it look authentic. The book is supposed to look like it came from the 1806 Lewis and Clark journey. After that, my dad will probably make me skate 2 laps. Now that I am better at skating, I at least don’t hate it as much. That’s what I know I have to do, but here's the plan that came to mind because I need gooning material. Once I get home, I will go straight to my computer to copy this onto it. Next, once my dad leaves to pick up my brother, I will go and search for that good gooning material and download it to a secret folder so my dad won’t be able to find it and I will likely be able to access it when he removes internet access from the computer at night. I’ll then probably dilly dally on the computer for a little until my dad returns. Then, I will work on the project and ask my dad for leather and cardboard… all that junk and ask my mom for the hot glue gun and valentines stuff too. After that we would have dinner and then skate. The time would probably be around 7 PM so I can go up into my room and use that time to go on my phone until 9, when my dad makes my phone shut off. Then… I will continue to write really bad fanfiction. It isn’t bad per se, but bad in morals. I’ll go more into it in the Germany shrine. After I’m done with the fanfiction it would be around 11 PM. Then I would go downstairs onto my computer and actually goon to some real shit, instead of the boring Russia shrine I have on my bedroom wall. Mission (I hope) Success.

Dear fucking god,

I HATE the masive fucking influx of england, rusame, and the ASS REACTION PIC I HATE ALL OF THEM ESPECIALLY RUSAME I FUCKING HATE IT. AAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHH. GOD DAMNIT.

I don't want engalnd here or the ass reaction pics! I'm stuck with America cuz i live inside him!(half ref)

How I feel after I say the most down right wrong and diabolical shit here:

I hate when I'm like this,

This is HORRIBLLLEEE. I’m putting this in my newly Germany shrine because… it gets bad with my thoughts. I’ll put this under freaky, but it’s not just freaky but a really realllyyy bad mind set.

Yippie,

I got all A’s. Fucking finally. But my premonition is up and I have the right to believe that I will reach my peak (now) before my fall. I’m so tired I don’t know if my stomach is hurting just because or it’s my liver failing from the amount of monsters I drank this week. I know that everyday from last Thursday to Tuesday I drank 2 monsters. So I have had 12 monsters. Dear god. But the web doesn’t say anything about liver failure, so I think it’s just my stomach randomly hurting. Also, I just questioned something that happens to me after a night of gooning, so I’m going to say this in the freaky section of the Bär shrine. BECAUSE I’M GOING TO BLAME RUSSIA FOR THIS. Edit: Just got my labs and this is likely why my liver is a bit messed up.

Womp womp,

For me at least because I know I'm absolutely missing at least on assignment. On top of thatnS tricked me into saying I like Slavic people, which I do. Auuggghh but! I made a new AU... rave AU like for my obbsession with speedcore/mashcore. You know how I love voices? I really love songs too. This willl sometimes happen to the point where I've played, for example, the Portal 2 ending song for over a day. Back to the new AU I made though... so far it was made only for Prussia. But maybe I will add the rest of the BTT. Because so far I could only see Prussia listening to Mayhem or... Jackal Queenston—THAT IS NOT BECAUSE HE IS EAST GERMANY BUT BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE HE'D LIKE SMOOTHER MASHCORE. IK ITS CONTROVERSIAL.

Sorry guys,

..for the long period of time without any updates(just realized it was only a day... what is wrong with me)! Yes, I know none of you are likely not actively watching me bc I have no followers... fuck yeah I'm useless on here. Anyway because of this I might raise awareness of my site on tiktok depends if I think my gf will be fine with my shrines and how freaky I can be. So why I was gone for a few days because there's this kid that was gonna shoot up the school(average day in america lol) and that actually scared me. Luckily, the co principal (I think) said she comfirmed that the campus is safe. But I was only half reassured because THIS BITCH IS A FUCKING CUNT SUCKING WHORE. Sorry again for my outbursts on here but I HATE THAT FATASS FOOT FUNGUS EATING FLY EATER. I can't really say why I hate her but it is a valid reason in my opinion, but it sounds stupid to say. Though I can't say it explicitly, she absolutely lied to us students a few times that fucking sag. So, I don't really trust that she sent a fully honest email to me about the campus being secure and "investigated by the police". Though, I'll be safe... hopefully. I still have a lingering feeling of premonition from the ICE stuff and now the shooter because I will admit... back then I was still a horny fucking bitch—I slept on that fucker once on the bus.

Besides that bullshit, I got through therapy today luckily though I did kind of bruise myself out of pure anger during the therapy call. At least I didn't show the pain on my face or else the call would have been longer, maybe fucking hours! But before that, I of course stayed home as I said. But you know what I did instead of doing my school work that I missed today? I FUCKING SLEPT THE WHOLE DAY, FROM 8 AM TO 3 PM. I FUCKING SLEPT LIKE THE FAT CHUD I AM. YOU KNOW WHAT IS EVEN WORSE?? AFTER THERAPY, MY FATASS BROUGHT MONSTER AND CHIPS IN THE TUB AND ATE WHILE I'M SUPPOSED TO BE WASHING MYSELF. I HAAAATTTEEEEE MYSELF AAAAGGGGHHHH. WHY?! WHY AM I LIKE THIS?! NOW I HAVE TO DO WORK BEFORE TOMMORROW. LOTS OF WORK.

I also realized my basic obbsessions over... you guessed it, stright white men, mweheheheh(refrence). But for the basic men or women I simp for, I make up for in how much of a weird freak I am for them. Take Russia for instance. Yeah... I've fantisized some WEIRD SHIT about him. And then I look at myself in the mirror and say,

MwhehehahaHAHAHHAHAHEHEHEHEHehe... I always lick the screen when I get to kiss Germany when he leans down in the game page. That's how I figured out I'm allergic to dust(ref).

5 deutschmarks for 5 cats at Arby's... (also another ref)

I'm sorry ppl,

I know I talk a lot on here but interacting with actual humans... it sucks. Talking online sucks too! MY SOCIAL ANXIETY IS SO BAD I HATE TALKING TO HUMANS I GENERAL AUUGGHHH. peper arven eehh aasgg. So now you know hy I'm ignoring you online too guiss. My lack of motivation for labor.

FUCK I MESSED UP,

That is if C sees this. Because after the post I mentioned C, K, and S in + the german, I said I found out C likes me. YEAH, I GAVE C THIS WEBSITE... I FUCKED UP I'M SO SORRY IF YOU SEE THIS C BECAUSE Z TOLD ME IT'S NOT MY FAULT.

Today hosts the ICE protests. I heard that 40 kids are going out of around 1,100. I pray for the safety of those who do go. I’ve heard rumors that the city police are going to go to the protests too and kids are going to be suspended and marked absent. I’m afraid ICE agents are going to come up to our school, our community. I’m experiencing intense premonition, my heart rate is very fast. My friend T is experiencing it too. She was crying because she felt so scared. I also heard on reddit that ICE was at the high school nearby last week since I’m following my city’s reddit. At lunch when people were gathering, I heard a helicopter go overhead, but I didn’t see it. That stressed me out more. I really hope no one will get hurt, we are only standing for what is morally right. To my friends that I gave this website to, if you’re going to the protests, be careful. Do not refuse the police, it will make the situation worse. Remain peaceful, I beg all of you. To the friends that aren’t going to the protests, thank you for keeping yourself safe. Though it is very important to stand for your rights and other rights.

Italy says white flag (˶°ㅁ°)࿓.ᐟ.ᐟ

I’m seriously bored I don’t want to listen to the teacher this sucks. I’m going to put this in my website because I’m bored aggggghhh. Teachers talking about high school. HIGH SCHOOL. I DON”T WANT TO GO WAAGGGH. RECRUIT?? WAIT WHAT?! LOOKING AT THE HIGHSCOOL WEBSITE? I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS AAAAGGGGGHHH RAAAGGGGHHHH. I’m not checking, I’m typing. I’m not looking at that website, I’m going to think about HOW I CAN GOON TO SPAIN. Because, it’s kind of hard to goon to spain with how I can’t remember how he sounds like.

mY cUrReNt MiUtHeRfUcKiNg HoNkInG sTaTe NoW :o(

DUDE,

Adding onto my post about my friends earlier, I just leaned C likes ME?! I HAVE A GF AND HE KNOWS THAT! AGGGGHHHH EVERYTHING SUCKS WHYYYY DOOES EVERYYTHING HAAAVE TO BE DIFFICULT AAAAAAUUUUUUGGGHHHH!

...at least I survived therapy.. yay.

Practicing German (without translation)

Ich liebe Schweiz, sie cool. Ich liebe Deutschland und Russland auch. Ich liebe Preussen zu. Ich habe cool ß nicht, auch Ich bin nicht.

That was horrible of me.

Translation is I love Switzerland, it's cool. I love Germany and Russia too. I love Prussia as well. I'm not cool, and neither am I.

I meant to say I don’t have the cool German ß so I’m not correct at the end.

God damnit,

I hate being embarrassed. SO UNCOMFORTABLE. I’m not going to say any actual names because if I do, I’m afraid one of my friends that I showed this website to might tell those mentioned friends. I’m already freaky enough on here, and I should simply be embarrassed of that and that only. So today I was sitting in with my lunch group like usual, but I like to sit next to S. Basically, we mess around and I’ve gotten into the pattern of mentioning S more in my dialect. K started getting suspicious and accused me of liking S. I was embarrassed by this accusation because 1 I have a girlfriend and the thought of liking someone else makes me embarrassed because that’s sinful(?). 2 some people know I’m a freak but some, not so much. I’ve mentioned my freakiness but they didn’t pay too much attention to that. S checks one of my boxes in “Themes of the Gooner” in my shrine section. If K or my other friend C figures that out… I’M DEAD. THEN IT WILL REALLY LOOK LIKE I LIKE S BUT I DON”T!! I also kind of censored the situation because WHAT IF THEY STILL FIND OUT THAT I’M A FREAK?!

Holy shit,

I can also write code on my phone! Yes.... Mehehe. Idk why I would want to but YAY

Currently goonin to Spain's Marukaite Chikyuu. Gonna draw BTT later...I LOVE THEM~

So, it turns out I can edit my Neocities...

...on my tablet. You heard that right. If you saw in the BTT shrine section that I wanted to put nsfw material in there for the pure comedy of adding to that France pizzazz, I can do that now.

You heard that right. BUT it is extremely janky to do so and very slow... SO YOU'RE LUCKY I WON'T PUT MUCH.

Guh... hello,

HAMILTON EATING OREOS IN A PARKED CAR sorry my brother just started up Hamilton again, specifically The Room Where it Happened~ Oh my gody that song is so catchy. But in general what I was going to start with was that I am TIRED. And my after hours (after school) at home are soiled. 1 I'm not eating lime chips, instead I'm having Funyuns. They're alright but I prefer LIME CHIPS! 2 I'm using my mom's APPLE COMPUTER. It sucks because I can't even properly edit images and add it to my site now! I have to use my phone and all that but I can't use it now because my dad put a time limit on it. So I can't upload proper pictures to my Enishi shrine or the Art page. Uggggghhh and don't even get me started on... 3! FUCKING THERAPY. HOW ABOUT I THE RAPEY THE THERAPIST HUH? NOT GOOD TO HEAR, HUH SHARNA?! FUCKING STUPID ASS NAME I HOPE YOUR PARENTS NAMED YOU HORRIBLY ON PUPOSE SO YOU ALWAYS KNOW YOUR A FALIURE OF A PERSON. NO NOT EVEN A PERSON. YOU'RE A FUCKING DISGUSTING MICRORGANISM OF SHIT. A SHIT PROTEIN THAT BELONGS IN THE SEWER, IN THE OCEAN WITH THE OTHER FISH. AND NOT EVEN THE FISHES LIKE YOU. YOU'RE NOT EVEN GOING TO SLEEP WITH THE FISHES, YOU'RE GOING TO DIE WITH THE FISHES WHEN I RECREATE HIROSHIMA ON YOUR WHOLE FAMILY BLOODLINE. FUCK YOU DUMB ASS WHORE. Yes, I do HATE, LOATHE, therapy. FUCKING DIE. So overall, today might have been an easy day but tommorow I going to have thearapy. FUCKING SHIT.

Hello Sailor,

I did a whooooole lot today. First I made two more pages, my shrine page and my art page. They are very similar to this page but more wide and... weirder! Yes I'm going to get more weird on here. Not too weird. You know, with... my whole obbsession with Russia... Oh! I should add Enishi too I'll do that since I have more time. I have... around 40 minuites left. I don't really, I could easily sneak downstairs at 1 and hop on the computer while everyone's asleep! YIPPIE! Maybe... depends. But I'll make more shrine parts and then log off. Thank you and goodnight folks!

Dear Void,

FUUUUUUUCCCK. I DID IT!! i DID SOMETHING IN HTML. So yes I made used a template but i did the color and the images... maybe not that much. Man, I'm kind of sad abt that. Oh well... I really don't care. Most imprtantly, when my nickname goober comes to mind I think of Gamzee, which I think where my nickname originated from. So anyway, I'm getting back into my Gamzee personality! I was discovering my Sollux personality but... he's kind boring. Honk Honk muthafuka asta la vista or smth auf wiedersehen :o)